Published on 29 October GMT
Faranza was a heroine of SQ6. SHe got out unhurt, however like many others, went back into the raging fires to rescue other people. The girl is wounded, however her ambition, is to fly for Singapore Airlines into the skies again.
SQ 006 stewardess can't wait to fly again
A year ago tomorrow, Singapore Airlines Flight SQ 006 crashed while trying to take off from Chiang Kai-shek International Airport in Taipei and 83 people died. Rookie flight attendant Farzana Abdul Razak survived the disaster, but lives in constant pain. However, she is undeterred by even the Sept 11 terrorist attacks, and tells ARLINA ARSHAD why she thinks flying is still safe
HER legs throb with pain but SQ 006 crash survivor Farzana Abdul Razak, 19, said she cannot wait to fly again.
'All I do is read comics and watch TV at home,' she lamented. 'I miss flying and having a full life.'
But her doctor has told her she is still unfit to work.
'My legs hurt if I stand longer than 10 seconds. It feels like there are needles poking me. I hate to wait at traffic junctions or queue for anything,' she said.
She goes to the Singapore General Hospital every three weeks for a checkup and goes for counselling at Siglap Centre once a week and Mount Elizabeth Hospital once every two weeks.
Miss Farzana, who had burns over 45 per cent of her body, must also pop four pills a day, apply lotion on the 'brown and lumpy scars' on her limbs and be swathed in rubber-like pressure garments to smooth the skin and lighten the colour of the scars.
'It's very uncomfortable, and I need to wear that 24 hours a day,' she said.
And 'it's annoying to have to apply lotion and take anti-depressant, muscle-relaxant, anti-itch and sleeping pills,' she added.
She has had nine skin-graft operations since the crash in Taipei on Oct 31 last year.
Her face was not affected, but she lost the top three layers of the skin on her right leg and arm.
She intends to go for plastic surgery.
When she is in the sun, she feels hotter than others; and feels the chill more acutely in an air-conditioned room.
When outdoors, she must be covered up in long-sleeved tops, slacks, socks and gloves.
'I look so dressed up even when I'm just going downstairs to buy sweets,' she said.
She added with a laugh: 'People always stare at me as if I'm a weirdo.'
It has only made her stronger, she said, adding: 'I used to be indecisive and obliging. Now, when I say no, it's no.'
The nightmares have stopped, she said, but she can empathise with the victims of the Sept 11 terrorist attacks in the United States, especially the people in the planes that crashed into the World Trade Center and the Pentagon.
'The plane must have rumbled and shaken, and gone topsy-turvy, like the worst roller-coaster ride ever,' she said.
She tends to stay at home now, going to Orchard Road 'only if it's absolutely necessary'.
A favourite haunt is the Causeway Point mall near her home in Woodlands Street 82, where she meets her closest chums.
The four of them also visit each other's homes to chat or watch VCDs.
Her biggest worries are her health and whether she will be retrenched, since airlines are not doing well.
She is still on full salary. SIA is also paying for her medical fees and transport, which come to 'a few hundred dollars a month'.
Its deputy chairman and chief executive, Dr Cheong Choong Kong, visited her three months ago, she said, and they talked about her future, follow-up surgery and studies.
'But I just want to fly again, it's my passion.'
The Sept 11 attacks have not scared her off flying.
'Security is tighter now, so flying should be safer; there really is nothing to worry about,' she said.
Her mother, Madam Zainab Long, 50, said: 'Tragedy can happen anywhere, even in your own home.
'As a mother, of course I worry about her safety, especially because something bad has already happened.
'But her life is her choice, so I won't stop her.'