Sponsor Message:
Non Aviation Forum
My Starred Topics | Profile | New Topic | Forum Index | Help | Search 
Alone. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . And Okay.  
User currently offline747-600X From United States of America, joined Jan 2000, 2789 posts, RR: 15
Posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 3 days 1 hour ago) and read 874 times:

God... anyone here ever realize how many times you can listen to one song - just one - for six or seven hours strait? I don't know what you guys do at your computers, but I've been up all night (it's 6 am here) just listening... who cares what to, but just one song.

And it was a bad day for me yesterday. It's hard being the only 18 year old you've ever met who doesn't smoke, drink, or do drugs. But, y'know, it feels good. It feels good because all that peer pressure is there, and you can see it, and point to it, and show yourself your friends who were all opposed to smoking and swore they'd never do drugs and thought wildly drunken parties were stupid... and now are no stranger to any. And none in their own right will destroy a person, but I sort of decided that maybe I would see if it was even possible to go it alone, because you know when you take that road that there aren't gonna' be many other cars.
But man - on a road with no cars, its amazing how you don't have to worry about getting run over or stressed out or pushed along when you don't really want to go.
Yeah - yesterday was a really hard day, 'cause people were bitching about everything and when they bitch they smoke, and when they smoke they talk, and I love to talk. I love to sit with people and let out thoughts and just vent and vent and dream and get it all out and have a good, wholesome conversation. And I stand there in the restaurant where I work making big dollars because they're all back in the break room in their cloud, and I'm, well... alone.

And people have to have some reason to hate other people, and if they don't, they're not cool. This is all teenage stuff, I guess. It's very mature, they think, to be totally opposed to another human being, to look at someone and in a totally adult voice say, "That hoe is such a f_cking b_tch." And the others nod and say, "Yeah, she's such a tramp." And they laugh and they know they're right.
So yesterday kinda' sucked 'cause it gets to a point sometimes where you just can't really stand it, knowing that they're all going to get laid with people they don't even know 'cause they're so drunk, knowing that they've been hi in their way, knowing that I'm going home to spend six hours at my computer talking to you guys (thanks  Wink/being sarcastic), knowing that I pretty much have chosen not to go down that road whether it's hard or not.

And yesterday I got a call from a modeling agency. They want me to go and try out for IMTA, the International Modeling and Talent Association. They have a big "thing" every six months and while auditions are pretty much open to anyone, I went to this agency a while ago and auditioned for them and they loved me and - yes, self, that's right, they loved you - and in two weeks I'm gonna' go have myself a singin', acting, cold-readin', runway-walkin' ball of a time.

And I have this wild dream, this weird dream, that someday - someday, I will be able to reach people and let them know that you don't have to smoke and drink and do drugs and get laid with people you don't even know... just to be cool.


Yesterday was hard, but the sun has just come up and I've spent six hours writing poems and songs and even designing my bloody airport a little bit.
I dunno' how much of this rambling makes sense, but I'm just glad I survived...

one more day.


"Mental health is reality at all cost." -- M. Scott Peck, 'The Road Less Traveled'
11 replies: All unread, jump to last
 
User currently offlineJared From United States of America, joined May 2001, 685 posts, RR: 0
Reply 1, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 3 days ago) and read 825 times:

Are you kidding? There are probably more straightedge 18 year olds than any other age.

Although I am almost 20, I have been straightedge since my mid-teens. I'm not going to preach straightedge or anything, but I think it was the right choice for me.

Sure, it sucked having your friends begging you to go over to someone's house to get "wasted" but I didn't do it and I am kinda proud of that.

Go to a straightedge punk show or something in Chicago and meet some people!



User currently offlineJared From United States of America, joined May 2001, 685 posts, RR: 0
Reply 2, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 3 days ago) and read 817 times:

Well, not that you need to meet anyone. I did pretty well on my own.

User currently offline747-600X From United States of America, joined Jan 2000, 2789 posts, RR: 15
Reply 3, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 3 days ago) and read 817 times:

lol, I've never even heard the term "straightedge" before. Anyway, I've never met another one (that I know of, I'm sure there are plenty out there, but...).


"Mental health is reality at all cost." -- M. Scott Peck, 'The Road Less Traveled'
User currently offline747-600X From United States of America, joined Jan 2000, 2789 posts, RR: 15
Reply 4, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 3 days ago) and read 816 times:

...and I'm not really into anything punk. It doesn't help liking Country music much I s'pose, does it? (Hey, but at least you can understand what the singers are saying... sometimes...)


"Mental health is reality at all cost." -- M. Scott Peck, 'The Road Less Traveled'
User currently offlineApathoid From , joined Dec 1969, posts, RR:
Reply 5, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 23 hours ago) and read 805 times:

You two be careful you don't hurt your shoulder patting yourselves on the back like that...

User currently offlineJared From United States of America, joined May 2001, 685 posts, RR: 0
Reply 6, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 23 hours ago) and read 795 times:

Heh, that was clever.

Oh well, I'm used to it.


User currently offlineILS From , joined Dec 1969, posts, RR:
Reply 7, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 20 hours ago) and read 792 times:

When I broke up with my girlfriend, I listened to Lit "Addicted" for 5 hours.

User currently offlineMaxPowers From United States of America, joined Dec 2000, 475 posts, RR: 0
Reply 8, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 19 hours ago) and read 767 times:

Peer Pressure is a crock of shit.

User currently offlineAirlinelover From United States of America, joined Jun 2001, 5580 posts, RR: 23
Reply 9, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 16 hours ago) and read 740 times:

I have done that.. Listened to a song for hours on end.. I am also 23 years old, don't smoke, drink, do drugs, or any of that.. There is just no way to win by doing it.. I see people coming into my work buying smokes, and a lot of them smell like they live in a home that is totally smoke-filled, and it smells awful.. Also, there are people so stinking drunk, you can smell it on them 10 feet from the counter, and they want to know why i'm talking in another language (English is all I know).. Anyway, as for drugs, one of the WORST smells in the world is pot being smoked.. I won't have ANY part of ANY of it..

Right on man!

Chris



Lets do some sexy math. We add you, subtract your clothes, divide your legs and multiply
User currently offlineTwa902fly From United States of America, joined Dec 1999, 3125 posts, RR: 4
Reply 10, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 14 hours ago) and read 723 times:

okay you guys no matter what...

DONT DO DRUGS

I used to have no friends because everyone wanted to get drunk and smoke pot, but then i found people who didnt.

TWA902



life wasn't worth the balance, or the crumpled paper it was written on
User currently offlineTrvlr From United States of America, joined Feb 2000, 4430 posts, RR: 21
Reply 11, posted (12 years 6 months 3 weeks 2 days 14 hours ago) and read 729 times:

I'm definitely straightedge...well take the "straight" away, and you've got me. But it's not very hard to be a good kid. Common sense, really: if you've got it, you'll do well and succeed and feel like you have the world before your feet. If you don't, you'll go and do lots of stupid shit and generally fuck up your entire life. Luckily for me, I've chosen friends who are generally the same way, although it depresses me when people I am close to start show a lack of common sense when it comes to drinking, drugs, and smoking.

Generally, I'm glad that I've gone against what happens to much of my, ahem, "demographic" and not flunked out of school and/or not paid attention to any academic subject, instead throwing my efforts into drama (lol j/k).

Oh, and I actually had an experience with a modeling agency a few months ago too. They loved me blah blah blah, but when I looked at the paperwork, they were pretty much just trying to bilk me by offering me these "modeling classes" and giving me all the work when it comes to finding an agent and jobs, etc. So although I wish anyone luck with this kind of thing, just remember to closely examine what you're getting into, at least before you pay any money!!

Aaron G.


Top Of Page
Forum Index

This topic is archived and can not be replied to any more.

Printer friendly format

Similar topics:More similar topics...
Todd And Sarah Palin To Divorce posted Sat Aug 1 2009 11:59:30 by Dtwclipper
Norwegian Navy And Marines Preparing For Mission posted Wed Jul 29 2009 17:48:05 by Mortyman
Indian Students In Aus And The PR Trap posted Tue Jul 28 2009 08:00:38 by Baroque
Crashed Computer And Ipod Help Please posted Tue Jul 21 2009 05:00:57 by 747438
Large Hadron Collider - More Leaks And Delays posted Mon Jul 20 2009 23:41:10 by MadameConcorde
Reader's Digest And Other Sweepstakes, Why? posted Mon Jul 20 2009 21:46:58 by Springbok747
Sen. Boxer Gets Owned And Rightly So. posted Mon Jul 20 2009 18:13:03 by NIKV69
Seattle Light Rail Up And Running Today posted Sat Jul 18 2009 10:36:24 by Mike89406
The Ethnic And Racial Divide In The Lgbt Community posted Fri Jul 17 2009 19:13:18 by Tsaord
Questions About Visitng AUS And NZ In September posted Sun Jul 12 2009 14:46:40 by Marcus