UA777222 From United States of America, joined Dec 2003, 3348 posts, RR: 12 Posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 5 days 18 hours ago) and read 2313 times:
Hello Members, Crew, Staff, Johan,
I know this might not be the best forum to post such things but I hope that you'll let it stay.
For the past few weeks I have been dealing with a lot of personal issues, most recently a good friend of mine was killed in a car accident. Today I lost yet another person I truly loved. My ways of getting around it? Running away. I would go to friend's houses, travel, etc.
I have come to the conclusion that what I am doing isn't best for my own wellbeing. I can't keep running away. With that I am choosing to step away from what I normally run away to.
Some might call me a cocky ass on this site, others might think I'm the slightest bit helpful. Who knows? Regardless it's been a good 7-8 months in this forum. Before you all start talking about "why is this kid crying his issues out on a freaking public forum" I just wanted to let those whom I am friends with here know what's up.
Keep those you love closest and never let go. After you let go and they never come back....hardest thing you'll ever feel, and sadly a mistake I have made a few times now. Though some things might be better for 15seconds what really matters could be gone faster than you know it. I took a lot of things for granite through the past few months.
I have spent a lot of money on camera gear, in hopes that it would make me happy, I have spent even more traveling, hoping I could get away from it all. While I was able to do so for what time I did, it still caught up with me. With that I am going to be no longer associating myself with airliners.net and related websites along with aviation photography as a whole. While the hobby brings me much joy I really need to start focusing on those things that mean most to me.
No, Airliners.net is not my life nor is photography, it has just been something that I can ALWAYS turn to. The friends I have made while going out to the airport, etc. nothing but fantastic!
Relationships, family, friends, etc. You all here have been more than fantastic. While it is a 'website' I still have managed to make nothing but true friends here.
To those that know me and to those whom have helped me, thank you all for taking the time. I know I can be a bit of a pain but you guys stuck it out.
Again I wish you all the best and hope that this topic has at least 15min in the forum.
I hope to be back when the shit settles but until then I see no other option.
Take care (for the last time) and keep posting your rejected shots, trip reports, and your many complaints about the crew, because without it many of us wouldn't turn here day in and day out.
Jran225 From United States of America, joined May 2004, 308 posts, RR: 8 Reply 1, posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 5 days 17 hours ago) and read 2290 times:
it will be a great shame to lose such an amiable member of the forums, not to mention an outstanding photographer whose photos I have very much admired for quite some time. I hope that this decision will ultimately be for the best and who knows...maybe one day you will decide to return. I think I speak for all the members here when I say that you will be missed! Best of luck to you Matt!
Never tell your girlfriend about all the 'action' you're getting at the airport - only photogs understand that.
Xpfg From United States of America, joined Oct 2003, 633 posts, RR: 7 Reply 4, posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 5 days 16 hours ago) and read 2163 times:
Quoting Waketurbulence (Reply 5): Wow, way to show some compassion!!! As Napoleon Dynamite would say, "IDIOT!!!" Anyway, I digress...Matt, I wish you the best in the future, and had a nice time shooting with you and getting to know you for a few days.
BTW Since you are not going to be putting that 100-400L to good use anymore, you mind helping out a fellow A.net photog? Big grin
F9Widebody From United States of America, joined Sep 2003, 1604 posts, RR: 10 Reply 10, posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 5 days 14 hours ago) and read 2080 times:
Wow Matt. Didn't see this coming. I think you are making the smart decision though. I'd still be into photography if I were you. That's what I am doing...putting no more money into it, just doing what I can with what I have when I want. Just play it low key man, if you wanna spot; spot. If you are suffering an addiction of sorts, though, then your decision is a smart one. I still look forwad to meeting up with you christmas time. If you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, you have my number.
TedTAce From , joined Dec 1969, posts, RR: Reply 15, posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 5 days 5 hours ago) and read 1815 times:
Matt, I'm sorry you felt you had to delete yourself to make a point here...if your as smart as you claim, just stay away from the computer save the rare trips here.. self deleting is a cry for help that no one listens to.
F9Widebody From United States of America, joined Sep 2003, 1604 posts, RR: 10 Reply 23, posted (8 years 3 months 2 weeks 4 days 12 hours ago) and read 1361 times:
Quoting CORULEZ05 (Reply 19): I don't understand how "personal issues" have ANYTHING to do with being a member of anet. But of course everyone is free to make their own decisions and what they feel is best for them.
After having spoken on the phone with Matt I think what is going on is that he is just very overwhelmed with alot of stuff that is going on right now, back to school in addition to the above listed....time to start getting ready for college, etc. and deleting your Username prevents you from posting, and practically gives you no reason to read a.net - More free time better spent on other activities.