Ask yourself this: What type of flying do you want to do? What kind of person are you?
In the military, you get to fly at 50 feet through the mountains, pulling 9g turns and blowing things up. In the civil world, you are a bus driver, but you don't (usually) get shot at.
If the thrill of flying at 600 kts at less than 50 feet and blowing things up is your only reason for wanting to do it, are you of the right mentality to be a pilot?
If you want to be a military pilot, can handle the pressures and love to fly at less than 500 feet at 600 kts, are you sure you're prepared to run the risk of doing it with people trying their damnedest to kill you?
You are essentially asking which of two completely different environments you should choose. In one, you are in the business of killing people and destroying things. In the other, you are in the business of transporting self-loading cargo from A to B, trying your damnedest not to kill anyone.
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