I went to Sierra Tucson for rehab back in the summer of 2002. I had a cocaine and alcohol addiction. While it was a good, safe environment, not to mention a beautiful facility with the latest in psychiatric care, it never prepared me to go back into the world. While I was at rehab, I "came out." It was a safe environment and part of my recovery, but they didn't prepare me to be "out" in the real world. I went back to Dallas, came out to my friends, and lost most of them. While I wasn't physically ousted from my fraternity, my friendships were lost and I didn't feel welcome. Got back into the same habits as before, tried suicide 3 times. You can have all the psychiatrist, psychologists, doctors, rehab, AA
, etc., but your decision to quit has to come from within. None of these institutions will help you unless you have a deep down desire to quit. Most people don't realize this until they reach what they call in the rehab world, "the bottom." My bottom was when I got drunk and left a bunch of candles on and burned down my apartment. I was lucky that someone was here with me to wake me up, otherwise, I might be dead right now.
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