I've had several dreams, but actually more nightmares, that I can recall, one almost too grisly, but I'll share it at the risk of being suspended or probably banned altogether from a-net. I think I have more nightmares than dreams, because I'm a cynic and pessimist by nature.
- One is the day of my wedding. I'm at the altar with the girl of my dreams. Her side of the church is packed with her family and friends. My side is only my close family but no one else at all.
- At the base of Mt. St. Helens on May 18th, 1980, at 8:32am. I feel the 5.0 earthquake and then look up to see the entire north side of the mountain sliding off toward me and burying me under 200 feet of mud. The other version is being caught in the tidal wave as Spirit Lake is forced up into the hills by the landslide.
- Several involving plane crashes:
1.) United Flight 232-DC10 crash on 7/19/89...one where I survived and wandered through the cornfield injured and bloody. Another where I went up to the flight deck and helped the crew. The third is where I was in First class and my parents watching me on TV
, dying in the fireball after impact.
2.) United Flight 93, 9/11/01...one where I was on the flight but was killed. The other is where I'm the only person on the plane that knows about flying, and I set the COM radio to 121.5 and am able to land it at either CVG
3.) United Flight 811, 2/1989, HNL
....I'm sitting in row 9 or 12, on the right side, and I'm sucked out after the cargo door blows off in the rapid decompression of the cabin, and then sucked through the #3 engine. I come back as a ghost and watch my parents and family mourn me.
This one happened after the tsunami last December. We know we're at risk here in Seattle, and ironically, there was a program on just tonight on Discover about what would happen to the NW
coast and the cities when the Cascadia "mega-thrust" happens here. Anyway, I'm at work on the 43rd floor of my building downtown, and the magnitude 9 quake hits. I'm on the floor, experiencing the violent shaking, and when it's all over, I go to the office of one of my bosses, who was killed. I look out her window to see the tsunami has completely buried downtown Seattle, and halfway up our building. All I can see is similar to open ocean, and realize I'm trapped.
This next one is the worst, mainly because it terrifies the hell out of me, and I've had slightly differing versions of it on a somewhat recurring basis. I think it's partially because I've read too many books and seen too many movies about WWII and Nazi Germany and the Cold War. The other reason is because I have never really dealt with the bullying I suffered when I was younger. I don't quite understand the anger part, as I'm not an angry person at all but I internalize my feelings.
Setting: dark, cold night with the fog rolling in. It's in Germany, on the site of the East/West border, but with the fortified border still set up with minefields and electric fences, searchlights, etc. Tied to the fence are all of the people who picked on me a lot when I was younger and also all of the women who have rejected me for one reason or another. I'm dressed in an all-black Nazi SS
uniform and wearing a black cap with the silver skull on it, and wearing black sunglasses so no one can see who I am. I'm also holding a cane with a switch on the end of it to whip and beat them with. I'm yelling at each one at the top of my lungs (in German) how hurt me deeply and beating them with my cane as I yell, but each one of them looks at me strangely becuase they don't understand the language. I then throw the switch for the electricity, and my enemies who made my life hell growing up are gone in an instant.
I'm not a violent person, and wouldn't hurt anyone, which is why this scares me so much. I'll probably be banned for posting this and will probably get a call from someone, but thought I'd share. Maybe someone can analyze it for me and tell me how I can forget about it.
And the winner for best actress is....REESE WITHERSPOON for 'Walk the Line'!!!!!!!!