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Self-gloss / Pouring My Heart Out

Tue Nov 01, 2005 7:38 pm

I know most of you won’t give a damn but I just thought I had to share my feelings with you.

Today was the final academic act of my career as an Aerospace Engineering student at my University, Instituto Superior Técnico, in Lisbon, which is a good thing as next week I will start a job that has nothing to do with Aerospace Engineering. I handed over the report on my final project, named “Preliminary Design of an Engine for a Supersonic Business Jet” (oddly enough I had to present it on October 11th) and, honestly, I just don’t know what to feel.

It has been a fulfilling 5 years for me. Besides my school work I participated in a lot of extra-curricular activities (although to be honest most of the times my heart wasn’t really into it) and as a consequence I got to do stuff most of the other students doesn’t have the opportunity to do. I walked on the roof of the main building of the campus to hang a sign (not in protest…). I had meetings in some very antique and off-of-bounds rooms, including the President’s office (quite remarkable for a 10.000 student University). I organized a visit to an air base and helped teachers with congresses. I participated in a project to build a pan-european students satellite (SSETI) that got me the chance to visit ESA’s ESTEC in Noordwijk (The Netherlands) a couple of times. I made part of an association of European aerospace engineering students, helping organize their congress in Lisbon this year, driving a shuttle between the airport and the hostel and crashing my dad’s car in the process. I involuntarily participated in some tense teacher-student meetings. I helped organize an engineering competition between Portuguese Universities and participated in ESA’s 0-g parabolic flight campaigns. In my final year I got the experience of teaching 18-year-old kids, getting paid in the process. I even managed to get my face on TV a few times. Thanks to all of this I managed to develop relationships with professors that would otherwise be impossible.

Academically I did quite well although I have the feeling that if I had to repeat most of the classes I passed more or less comfortably I would fail. For my final work I even turned to for help (thanks again Lightsaber and F14D4ever).

I am usually a very emotional person in these types of situations but today, for some reason, I did not cry. Even though I have no intention, at this point in my life, of doing a PhD or anything I still get the feeling that, somehow, I still belong at University. Everyone expects me to be all grown-up and mature from now on but I still feel like the same kid who left high-school 5 years ago. I am even reluctant to update my profile.

The song “My way” by Frank Sinatra just keeps popping into my head today.

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I traveled each and ev’ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I’ve had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried
I’ve had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way
“Oh no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way”

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way!

Yes, it was my way.

Thanks for listening,


(cue cargo bay and give-a-fuck-o-meter).
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RE: Self-gloss / Pouring My Heart Out

Tue Nov 01, 2005 8:07 pm

Don't forget this one...

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RE: Self-gloss / Pouring My Heart Out

Tue Nov 01, 2005 8:18 pm

Seeing he gets the shaft at the first post I now know I don't have to bother reading any of his post.

You deliver this site a good service.  Wink

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RE: Self-gloss / Pouring My Heart Out

Tue Nov 01, 2005 10:05 pm

Quoting KROC (Reply 1):
Don't forget this one...

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