I know you hear this all the time, but above all else.........get a 4 yr college degree ! No matter what you have to do to get it, get that degree !
Look at it this way........your present situation is just temporary; but without getting a good education, being miserable can be a life-long problem.
Another thing, (and this will probably get me "flamed"), but I can handle that........learn to think for yourself; make all decisions based on provable facts, not on other people's opinions. Ever been around a creek or a river and watch a school of minnows, flitting this way and that way ? I used to think, "I wonder who the leader is"? It's a whole lot like that watching young people anymore; they all just HAVE to go on spring break.......which is nothing but an excuse to get away from Mommy & Daddy, and get drunk, get "laid", and unfortunately, in many cases, get "dead". ( Natalie Hollaway comes to mind ) If you really want to screw up your whole life, (and I don't think you do), just take up drinking and skirt-chasing for a "hobby", and you're on your way !
You have something very big going for you.........you're 20 years old ! That's your big advantage........you have time on your side ! Life is kind of like a ladder.......right now, you are on the bottom rung; when your job puts all this pressure on you to "deliver", keep one thing in mind; without you in your job, your employer has a problem.........they have to find someone to replace you, and that "someone" is going to be in just as much "pressure" to perform as you are. Do the job to the best of your ability........work hard at it; believe me, quotas or no quotas, management knows if you are giving it your best shot or not. They also know that the next person they hire is going to be under just as much pressure, and may very well do even less than you are doing. But you must be doing your best; don't be late to work, don't take a lot of time off, etc; in other words, don't give management a reason to think they can better themselves by replacing you.
It's always tough while you are on the bottom rung; what you must concentrate on now, is getting to the "next rung" on the ladder ! Getting that degree is a huge step ! Along the way, you may decide to find another job; that's O.K. but as long as you are on that one, give it your best, til the very last day. Create a good track record......that's very important. You'll be glad you did, if you ever start looking for another job.
I don't know how you feel about the military, but I know a lot of people who got off to a hell of a start in life, by spending a few years in the service. I know of a young man right here on A.net who learned about electronics in the Navy, and is now enjoying a very nice career, as a result. I'm not necessarily trying ti get you to rush down and enlist, but it IS
just one more "option" to think about.
Above all else........don't "take up" bad habits, as a means to "relieve the stress"; you will never know what stress is, until you become addicted to ANYTHING, (alcohol, or "mind altering substances"), or else that other "problem" that ruins a lot of lives forever.........getting a young girl "in trouble"; ( believe me, you'll be in just as much trouble as she is!)
Take a look at all these news stories about these college kids going nuts on spring break..........I'd venture to guess , half or more of them are going to be "paying" for their stupid behavior for years to come.
Fortunately, not all young people are "idiots" ! I had the great pleasure just recently of meeting one of the "exceptions";
can't say too much on a forum, because he's "in the family".............but this young man tried very hard to get into the Air Force Academy; he didn't quite make it; but he was DETERMINED to be a pilot............so he went to a well known school, known for "prepping" many for service careers; right out of HS
, he went to college, got in ROTC, graduated, went into the Air Force, learned to fly, flew F-15's for 4 or 5 years, and is now flying F-22A Raptors ; he is now 30 yrs old, and is still single"; he told me he has two years left on his "commitment" to the Air Force, and is "considering ALL
of his "options"; so then I asked, "so, you are thinking of getting out, and getting a job with an airline" ? His answer kinda surprised me.........."oh no, not with an airline...........with Fed-Ex or UPS........don't want to have to put up with "Pax" ! "But, I will most likely just stay in; after flying the Raptor, everything else kind of "anti-climatic"! He is a Captain now, has already been selected for, and will be a Major in June, and with hard work and a little luck, should be able to "trade in" his gold oak leaves for silver ones in maybe 4 or 5 years.
Is getting this far in 10 years "easy" ? Hell no it's not easy! It's hard as hell ! It takes determination, self-discipline, and a hell of a lot of work; but it's WORTH IT
! And it's "doable"! That's the big difference between "self-starters" and the "minnows"............they learn early on to THINK FOR
THEMSELVES ! They learn early on, not to "ape" the stupid, self destructive behavior of their "peers", and they learn, early on, how to make good decisions.
The fact that you asked for advice, in a public forum, suggests to me that you are likely to be a potential "winner", and not one of the "minnows" ! If you ever need help with "ideas", check my profile, and drop me an email. And GOOD LUCK !
Stupidity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result; Albert Einstein