Some of you remember my last thread, (Darn that chinese girl!) and the problems I was having with being in love with her and also her being in what looked like an unsafe situation.
If you read no further, please read this:
Thank you, thank you everyone who provided some insight onto the situation with Tang Tang, expecially Qantas Airways and Iainhol, who presented a very hard, black and white perspective on how foolish I was in not seeing just what kind of girl she was.
Helping me fall out of love with her was be best thing you guys could have done for me, because if you had not, what happened today, would have nearly killed me. A million thanks for your help.
If you are interested in what happened today, read below:
I got to school today not even thinking about her. Over Christmas break I came back into contact with my old best freind from last year, (Jessica) and we are once again best friends after not hearing from each other in over 8 months. So on my morning walk to school, I was thinking about my renewed friendship with Jessica.
IT was a slow day, I really would've rather been in bed but otherwise an enjoyable day. By second hour I saw Tang Tang in the hall, and realized that in the time I had talked to you all, and over Christmas break, I had finally fallen OUT of love with her. It was a big releif, and a huge weight off my shoulders.
The rest of the day went as normal. Until 6th hour, where I am a media center aide with Tang Tang.
She came walkign in and I noticed something very different about her. It took me second to realise it, but Tang Tang suddenly looked very, well, wild. In her hand, was a Japanese magazine with a half naked woman on the front of it (What she called a fashion mag.)
My frainds and I went over to look at the mag, whcih she placed on the desk, and it sure was a fashion mag, a fashion mag for....bedtime clothes, very erm...revealing bedtime clothes. I must admit the Japanese girls in the mag were very attractive, but I was wondering why Tang Tang had suddenly gone into this kind of reading material. Which, I have absolutely nothing against at all, it was just strange that she had changed to this when before break she was looking at story tale books. (I'm not kidding)
So anyway, I asked her what she did over vacation, and she said "I went to a partyyyyyyy"
I said what kind of party, did you have fun?
"Yeeeeesss!!! My freind and I got drunk, hahaha, and some of them they have sex."
Well keep in mind I'm not in love with her anymore, so instead of having a panick attack, I very calmly asked her, "What about you?"
She looked at me a long while and said "No, I did not have sex at the party, hmm hmm, I was very drunk and I did fall asleep."
I said "So your okay then, phew, good. OK."
Then she says "I will go back to Hong Kong on January 17th, because I cannot stay here."
I asked why.
She says "I need condom until I go."
I thought "Oh shit."
"Why do you need a condom Tang Tang?"
She looked at me a long while and then she says "So I do not get pregnant.........after party I woke up in car with my host brother, and he ask me for sex...and I told him no. But I fell asleep and I woke up, and he was taking the sex from me."
I thought "OH SHIT"
"So what happened tang tang? Are you okay, did he really have sex with your or did he try or what happened?"
"He did have sex with me, and I did not want to but my freind, they do it and say it is okay, and so I change mind and I did sex with him, and he wants me girlfreind now, and I am not sure I am so confuse, so I will go back to Hong Kong, and then I move to host family in Australia."
I said "OH thit tang tang, she shouldn't have let him have sex with you!!! You're worth more than that!!! You are nto a piece of meat you are a good person, you shoudl hae kicked him in the balls."
"HAHAHA" was all I got out of her, and then she says "It is okay sex is not bad. I will not be girlfreind but I need condom because i do not want pregnant, and we will have sex hmmm hmmm maybe tonight."
I felt hurt by this, but not nearly as hurt as I would have been if I were still in love with her.
I said "Well, I guess thats your choice tang tang, Australia's good you'll like it there, just be safe."
And I left and went into the back room to shelve books cause I didn't want to deal with it anymore, just wanted to forget about her.
So, it's over, completely over. the worst has happened, I failed to protect her but it was out of my hands anyway. I am telling you all this because you all did me such a good favor, helping me fall out of love with her, helping me face facts saved me from what could have been the worst heartbreak I may have ever had.
Thank you all so much, Tang Tang is no longer anything more than a friend to me, and I dont have to worry about her, now all I have left to worry about is freinds who aren't in any more danger than I am. I should have known long ago that tang tang would eventually get laid it was just a matter of time, thanks for pointing that out before it was too late.
Any comments, about this whole thing? I'd like to have everyone from the last thread reply so that you at least know that I apprecaite all you did.