, well it's kind weird, it's kind of silly, and it feels kind of stupid, but here it goes:
I met her a while ago at the first weekend’s school sponsored party. She was playing chess with other students from their hall (in which I felt out of place). We were never properly introduced, I got her name through other people who introduced themselves; the right moment was not there, or at least that was my excuse. That was about 3 weeks ago.
Suddenly this Monday I had the opportunity to say something, but I hesitated to take the chance fearing it would look too weird (the situation I mentioned above in previous post). Plus I was thought that her body language would have made the awkwardness worse. But then I saw her again on Wednesday (she looked in my direction as I was walking to class, I cannot tell if she was just glancing or recognized me), and again this morning @ breakfast. She's usually never alone, there is at least someone with her, except that one time when I realized see was walking next to me!
Look, she is very attractive, but I don't know her. It is completely irresponsible for me to say that I might like her. I have not thought about her in a long time and it seems like more than a coincidence that I am suddenly seeing her around. We are both majoring in Aerospace Engineering; I also found that through her introducing herself to others back at that party. I am guessing that since I saw her in a class that my teacher says he teaches, she may also be a junior. But I am a semester off the normal track; I'll probably never have her in a class.
Do not ask me what I want cuz I don't know, I refuse to think about her in other ways simply because I don’t want to put myself in a situation that renders more pain than I have ever had; friends have nearly pushed me to suicide; I cannot imagine what mere dating would do… Talking to someone like that and sharing experiences and whatnot would be great -- but how do I get that point across without looking bad?
[I have to be careful though, cuz if someone she knows is on this site and tells her about "this guy online," chances are once I make a move to say hi, she'll label me as a stalker or something -- which I am not. I learned my lesson from someone else's mistake (check this out https://www.airliners.net/discussions/non_aviation/read.main/275499/6/
I am not obcessed with her; maybe a hour per week, which I heard is normal.
The meaning of life is curiosity; we were put on this planet to explore opportunities.